Hello Annie,
I am in a bit of a similar position to you. My moods have been truly shocking and like you, very dark. With your doubts my mental health has been my very worse peri symptom. I thought I had it all stabilised with a high oestrogen patch and a low dose AD, and the last couple of months have been pretty good. But the last three days I feel I am very low again mood wise. So I totally get the fear we are sliding back down.
My hope is that it is another blip, a temporary set back, maybe my hormones are fluctuating again ( despite not my pms week) I also have underlying cortisol/thyroid stuff being investigated.
My big advice is to do as you have done today. Always post on here when you need to. Someone will always be there who understands how you feel. I have definitely been helped back up by some amazing women on here.
I am not the best to advise on Vitamins, hope someone else can step in.
I thinks it's a fabulous way of helping yourself and potentially others by learning a mental health course. And yes, keeping your self occupied before the thoughts to haywire. When I was in the very severe moods I stayed close to my husband as I was a bit scared, I realise you are often on your own, so I urge you to reach out here, or indeed know there are places to call if you feel you are in a crisis.
Keep busy, physically and mentally, keep up with your meds, and please be assured people do understand and care x
