I had an early menopause at 39 and was told I couldn’t have hrt because I would be on it too long and raise cancer risks.
I got antidepressants on and off and limped on
At 56 I had bilateral salpingoopherectomy due to large cysts with a borderline diagnosis which no one ever explained.
Mood symptoms worsened dramatically and I was started on hrt but became suicidal and thanks to this forum recognised that progesterone was responsible
Since then i have had multiple health issues, low vitamin and mineral levels, heart irregularities but no structural cause, osteoporosis and arthritis worsening suddenly, poor absorption low pancreatic enzymes,
Fatigue beyond anything I have ever experienced.
My thyroid is also failing and I started thyroxine which initially helped with muscle pain and energy levels but that little honeymoon is over and I’m struggling with fatigue, severe depression and the feeling that I cannot bear being in this body any more. I just don’t feel like myself at all and that is so frightening.
I have oestrogel and progesterone tablets that i had decided to try vaginally as suggested here
I just look at the bag and cannot face the potential upheaval. I’m 59 now maybe it’s just something I have to accept. I never did get on with hormones, my own gave me severe premenstrual issues, the pill gave me headaches and made me fat and even the vaginal oestrogen pessaries made me bleed after a week having been 20 years since my last period!
I’d be interested in how people who never took hrt have fared with their bones and their mental health I’m worried I’m just going to crumble away as I have a lot of joint pain despite exercise and bone building drugs.
And the mental turmoil of feeling like a waste of space with nothing left to offer and no energy to do anything about that is becoming too much.
should I try one more time and see if a very low dose is tolerable?
If not I have a good stock to give away!
Thanks to anyone who makes it to the end of this.