Bring me sunshine, Ladybt28: how are you both doing?
I haven't been on the forum for a bit as I've been very up and down. What I'm going through at the moment feels like heartbreak and I'm scared I?ll never feel well again. I'm even crying as I type this!
I was given trazodone but 'that's been making me feel weird and I'm scared to take it! I've been doing what I can otherwise - hanging out with flat mates, seeing friends, and I saw the nicest lady for a mindfulness session on Monday. I just wish I could snap out of this, find a job and have a life again.
I sympathise so much with what you have been saying - I thought I had cracked it with the hormones and that they explained my severe difficulties with my mood, but as I said at the moment I just don't know. My estrogen was over 1,000 during my last blip so I thought that explained a lot, but I had a blood test recently when I was feeling awful and it was just over 500 - completely normal. Then again, my consultant said that blood tests only give you a snapshot and can change quickly, and you may feel the effects of a certain level of hormones days later.
My iron levels are now fine; last year I wondered if that might have been affecting my mood because they were low, so that hasn't changed how I feel. I'm scared because I don't know what to do.
Apologies for the rant, I just feel so hopeless right now.
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