Yeah, I really agree - for me one of the biggest problems is that friends and family don't really get it, and I'm always worried about being too much of a burden on other people (not helped by my 2 closest friends buggering off and abandoning me in the middle of the cancer treatment). So I end up isolating myself, because I think I'm too much for anyone else to cope with (and also because, to be honest, it can feel very lonely even when someone does try to be supportive, if they don't actually understand how incredibly awful this feels).Over the last year I feel like the confident, creative, vibrant person I was has gradually gone underground, and I'm struggling to maintain any presence out there in the world at all. So when I see that other women on here notice if I've disappeared, and send me messages to make sure I'm OK, I feel like I'm not alone. I'm crying now, because at the moment this forum is all the support I've got - while I'm waiting for MH services to come up with something I'm on my own and all I can do is phone the Samaritans if it all gets too much. Thankyou all for caring xxxx