Birdy - please, please don't stress mind you I know it is easier said than done - it is highly unlikely you have alzheimers - the memory problems and the fogginess are totally part of meno, but are not much talked about (except on here - where we are all aware of the issues cos most of us have been there) and yes it is extremely scary I too fitted the profile but it wasn't. I couldn't find words, stopped mid-sentence. Went out couldn't remember why or where I was going. I parked my car and couldn't remember where, lost it more than once in carpark and called my husband telling him it had been stolen! and if you are suffering badly with anxiety your mind just runs riot and your body gets worse because the worry ramps up the anxiety!
I may be speaking out of turn but I have been reading your posts for a while now and I am thinking that maybe your combination lozenge of bio-identicals is either not strong enough or is in the wrong combination for you because if it was right it would be working for you by now. I don't really understand the lozenge system, it confuses me a bit...are they made up of the hrt chemicals that are in the likes of everol, or my gel, or femeston etc eg chemically made in a lab to mimic our bodies hormones or are they made from yams or soy or the totally natural sources of oestrogen etc mixed with progesterone (although I thought there wasn't a natural progesterone in the natural world, there was only a lab derived mimic one - I know someone will correct me I am wrong??!) What I am asking is exactly what oestrogen, progesterone chemicals etc are in your lozenge - do you know the name of the progesterone for example?
Personally I do not think you can continue to suffer as you are - something is not right - you need to go back to your consultant who prescribed your lozenge and tell them how poorly you are and that the levels needs to be tweaked or represcribed and/or you need to try something different altogether and/or indeed a different consultant (whichever makes things better) I had to try 5 types before I got one that even started to work properly, the rest were a nightmare. We all react so differently. It is working for Autumn 27 but it is definitely not working for you. I am very worried about you and having been there, I know the trauma of the mental health situation you find youself in - it is a nasty and dangerous place to be. I am convinced it can be fixed - your consultant needs to step up but you need to tell them first!