Oh bless you, Dazned! Thank you - your encouragement and wise words help so much! xxxxx
Edelweiss, I understand COMPLETELY why you expressed yourself that way though. I remember in 2012 there was I, happily popping this medication and that to help control excruciating pain after I had unsuccessful spinal surgery (it left me with nerve damage). Then one day.... bam! I had an almost fatal allergic reaction to a medication and my immune system went crazy, I had to stop EVERYTHING. The things that worked for me, couldn't and wouldn't work any more.
I was bereft, demented - it was like someone had pulled the plug and I was in an alien, pain wracked body that I couldn't medicate better. I am absolutely certain that on MANY occasions, I said 'shoot me now'. And I wonder if this is why now my body cannot even accept HRT.
When something happens so suddenly as it has with you and HRT stopping working like that, it's an ENORMOUS shock. You are entitled to feel all of the feelings - grief, anger, disbelief. But I guess it's whether we let these feelings consume us and destroy us, or whether we find the strength and courage to carry on.
So let's walk together, forward - and be inspired by the lovely ladies here who are helping show us that we can do this. Because you're much stronger and more remarkable than you can ever realise right now. xxxxx
And can I say THANK YOU, Alberte - for your kindness earlier and now. It really is so very much appreciated. xxxxx