Ladies
I am 41 years old and been in peri for the last 2 years. I have trialled a couple of HRT options over the last year and laterally the meno consultant recommended that I go on Millenette combined pill to cancel out my cycle. They also suggested back in October that I change my AD from Venlafaxine to Sertraline (which I did), to cut a long story short, everything has declined since. Every week losing more and more of my identity and confidence. I battled through Christmas with Sertraline and estrogel and then on the 1st of Jan I changed over to the combined pill, this is day 7 and I feel like a shell of myself. I am due back to work tomorrow and I'm terrified! I have weened off the Sertraline and started back on the Venlafaxine (I never felt on top of the world on it before but at least could function better than this).
I am a very sporty person and I try where possible to go out on my bike or swim, attend classes, but nothing seems to lift my mood. I am sick to the back teeth of feeling like this! I can't even get out of bed in the mornings now as I don't want to face another day feeling so detached and empty.
Why am I not producing serotonin through the exercise. I am so jealous of everyone buzzing around me at classes. I am riddled with anxiety and losing weight which I can't afford to do as I am naturally tiny as it is.
I'm terrified of another year of feeling like this! I have 2 kids, 11 and 8 and I feel like I haven't been a proper mum for over 2 years. I have no libido which has put huge pressure on my relationship of 18 years. All of this I have explained to GP and meno clinic but I just don't seem to be getting any further forward. I feel like I live in ground hog day!
I'm sick of people saying "you try so hard, you do everything you can to feel better and yet nothing works"
I am seriously considering paying to see Professor Studd, or if anyone know's of anyone in Scotland that could help me I would really appreciate any advice. I am desperate to get my life and happiness back.
Sorry for huge rant, but I am so.....angry at life and the unfairness of it......
WMLB