Hi, I've just turned 40 and last year started having irregular periods ( I have always been bang on 28 days!) After 6 months they evened out again,but since then I seem to have turned in to someone I don't know and certainly don't like. Rage ,anger,paranoia,irritable,fits of uncontrollable jealousy (totally unfounded), palpitations,dizzy spells,loss of appetite (not a bad thing
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) insomnia, self loathing, loss of confidence,loss of interest in life,dark thoughts about cowardly ways to not be here anymore like going to sleep and not waking up ever again,and the embarrassing fits of tears and uncontrollable sobbing. Sound familiar? Finally plucked up the courage to visit GP as the nurse who did my recent cervical screening was most uninterested in what I had to say.GP diagnosed perimenopause which was kind of a relief, I wasn't just a mad woman!! My main concern was getting the emotions under control as it's starting to affect my marriage and daily life. She suggested a 10mg dose of Citramopril. I just want help so I accepted. Having now found out that it is an antidepressant (I've done the herbal route) I'm worried. The side effects sound awful and very much like the symptoms I'm trying to rid myself of. I've never been a user of medicine unless it's unavoidable but this seems like my only option. Does anybody have experience of this drug? Any information negative or positive most welcome. Thankyou for your time ladies.x