Why are you ashamed? It is what it is! but if you are feel distressed by the constant of addiction, then maybe seek someone to talk to?
Are you able to go to a support group? Something your Psychiatrist should be aware of in your area, maybe telephone his secretary and ask what to look for and where to find that support? There may be opportunities within his building.
There should be notices in the GP surgery or at the Library, Yellow Pages. I don't see how a GP can deny someone access to an opinion what ever the complex medical needs!
Some people use alcohol to get by, I have an emerengy anti-anxiety tablet to swallow when it grounds me, otherwise I wouldn't be here. Deep breathing no longer helps
. It took over this morning so I took a tablet sooner rather than letting it take me over. I know that there is a danger of mis-use but because the pill works within 25-40 mins., and if I take it earlier rather than later, the over-all effect is of release from the churning gut etc..
I'm really saddened to hear that you would not be here if it were not for a little pill you take in emergencies.
How come deeep breathing no longer helps? Does it bring on a panic attack?
I got some reallly good advice, 'if in doubt, breathe out.
Panic is often caused by too much oxygen in the brain, according to what I learnt on an NHS psycho educational course, and breathing out is the first thing that should be done.
I guess I am ashamed cos society looks down on drug misusers, but I don't take them to get high, I take them to get myself through each day without breaking down or falling apart.
I am engaging with drug services, nurse, psychiatrist and GP, and I am also tapering off them.
I did attand a drop in group last week, it was only an hour long, but unfortunately, someone else who came took up most of the time, but I will be going again next week.
As I was diagnosed I think they understand Im not just a druggie.
I cannot remember if you are on hrt CKLD?
Maybe perhaps you may need a higher dose, I know that I still have anxiety but hrt did take some of it away.
Sorry my reply is late, I have been busy lately with loads of different things.