Just over a month ago, Prof Studd prescribed me 3 pumps of oestrogel with separate Utro to be taken on June 1st, 100mg for 7 days. And a blob of testim gel every day (my testosterone level was 0.7).
Well I stuck with the 3 pumps for just over 2 weeks but felt my anxiety was worse so dropped to 2 pumps for just over a week. Zero improvement in my anxiety and low moods.
And alongside this HRT I was taking 200mg of Trazadone.
Anyway.............whilst still using 2 pumps, on days 8-10 of my cycle this month I suddenly felt so much better (and I have read that from day 8 onward your own oestrogen starts to surge).
But then day 11 was pretty bad, and it was here that I stopped HRT. But days 12-13 I suddenly felt much better again (I couldn't really detect any increase in clear mucus etc, but this traditionally should be when I would ovulate).
Day 14 was pretty bad (but I was physically poorly and had barely slept the night before which always wreaks my well being). But days Days 15-16 I felt pretty good still (so perhaps still enough of my own oestrogen on board?).
Day 17 was a bit grim (certainly not helped by some sad personal news). But days 18-19 I felt fine again (I have read that you have another mini oestrogen surge on roughly day 19/20 of your cycle).
But since day 20 (Tuesday) my mood has just sunk lower and lower and my anxiety so bad. The worst I have ever felt, to be honest. Early morning anxiety just unbearable.
As I'm still pretty regular my period should start in 5 days time.
So....................if you have managed to get your head round that, does anyone else think my cycle shows I am reacting positively to the surges in my own oestrogen? The timing seems to really fit.
And is my now much worsening mood and anxiety due to my own oestrogen really dropping, and of course I'm not topping it up with oestrogel.
I just don't know which way to proceed. The 'good' days which I thought my AD was finally giving me, could just as easily be accorded to my own oestrogen rising at certain times.
I have a drawer full of oestrogel and testim prescribed by the leading world expert. Should I just go back to using it?
Please help. I am so confused and indecisive.