Ok so here I am in what is still peri, at the age of 54, had a 31 week gap but now had a period damn it.
I've documented on here my struggles of 2015, months of worry over mammogram results, surgery which was clear but I never perked up after. Then massive overdose of vitamin D gave me many things but the lasting one has been renewed tinnitus and hyperacusis (sensitivity to most normal sound).
I've been trapped in this hell since April, miserable, tearful, tinnitus, unable to bear anywhere noisy (cafe, shops, restaurant, car journeys). I can't do things to raise my mood as everything is noisy and thus traumatic.
My sleep us rubbish, even though I take melatonin, I have antidepressants. I got sent for CBT but she was rubbish and did not care that my tinnitus and hyperacusis had ruined my life and would not even learn about it. My gp wants me to a health pysc, but I've been on the list 7 months and I know the only one in my area will not do CBT or help with tinnitus.
I used to be full of life and loved to sing. I could cope with anything, now I feel like tired old rag. My daughter needs me but my head just rings louder with noise of her sons, lack of sleep does the same, I can't tolerate any noise or stress.
I feel so disabled by this hearing problem and I'm so angry about it too. I can't get help anywhere as nowhere in the world has treatment for either of my issues.
I went to funeral today, a big one, it was heartbreaking torture, I cried the family and cried for me too as the sound was intolerable even with plugs in.
I belong to tinnitus groups but can't discuss meno, I'm sure everything is intertwined now.
I really can't bear to think I could live another 30 years in noise hell.