Thank you so much for the support, what a wonderful bunch of ladies you are.....I can totally relate to that feeling coldethyl just as if all happiness and joy has been sucked out, leaving negative stuff.....very, very scary....client urine never shows infection but antibiotics seem to help...I get kidny pain and pelvis pain and what I can describe as a yukkiness also arousal....with feeling toxic......I have upped my anti depressants and feel anbit better this am but still have awful stomach chiurning...sooby, thanks, I do meditation, yoga, qi gong and swimming to relax n get the yuck out and it deffo helps especially am....hope you're all having a hormonally balanced day sisters xxx