Yes, I think you're right. When I am 'bad' like this, I just get overly panicky, flinging myself from pillar to post, desperate to feel better.
I spend too much time on here, and other similar places, just hoping to read some magic words that will magically make me feel better. And it's actually counter productive.
But when I am 'well' I am the complete opposite. I am very chilled and don't tend to post that much at all.
Actually, ***Stop The Press*** I think I know why I'm suddenly feeling so intensely dreadful. I think it's because I took Amitriptyline. I took 10mg at about 1am, hoping it would help me nod off (it's usually excellent for this). But this time it didn't work. I think by 1am I had almost gone past it? Always when I take Amitriptyline, I would take it at about 8pm, which would make me nicely sleepy for about 10pm.
I've never taken it after 10pm. And then I took 20mg more when I got up at 6am, hoping it would chill me out. But I have never taken it during the day before. Always during mid evening, then I would just sleep through any side effects.
I haven't needed to take any for ages, but did take 20mg at 9pm a few nights ago and fell asleep fine, and certainly didn't feel like this the next day. I should have taken the Amitriptyline much earlier last night, and certay not taken any at 6am.
How I feel right now, this awful very tired but very wired panicky feeling, is just how I felt when I tried taking Sertraline a couple of years ago. Same when.I tried Mirtrazapine. It seems too much of a coincidence?