I do completely understand your 'life seems so pointless' experiences Freda.
I am 8 weeks into HRT yet I am currently in yet ANOTHER low mood dip. Everything seems pointless. Nothing seems pleasurable. I feel despairing and thoroughly miserable inside. I am having to force myself to smile at my children and make conversation with my lovely husband. It is incredibly draining. All I want to do is lie on the sofa and stare at the wall
Now, this current dip 'could' be caused by my not absorbing my oestrogen due to my spray tan, then my patch fell off at some point for at least 24 hours? But, really I have no idea? It could just be that my bastard hormones are doing their own tango and HRT can't control them.
I know this mood dip will pass, they always do. but I am soooooooooo sick and tired of this awful rollercoaster of emotions. I am only 43 but recently I have found myself bitterly envying my Mum and her friends because they're all out the other side of menopause and living contented and calm lives.