only just seen these new replies and I am trying. However, I went the loo first thing and I looked and it was full of blood, fear and panic set in again and I took myself off to A and E. I had to! I saw a wonderful doctor who understood my nervous state. Bloods were done and my blood pressure was through the roof. he examined my stomach, back etc and then my bottom. He said I have 2 cuts inside me and I asked him about the bowel cancer. He said no, the bleeding is coming from the cuts. However, I should get myself referred to have as sigmoid or colonoscopy as the fear is going to do me more harm than anything. He said I should get it done and put it to bed. If I need treatment for the piles then just get it out of the way. He was very caring and understanding. But can I tell you and please don't get annoyed with me, but my first thought was, 'well if there is nothing wrong with me, why does he want me to be referred?' Even though he explained to me numerous times what I said above, I was and am still questioning why he said it. Second thing is, why all the blood out of a few tears? Again he explained that the blood splash effect in the toilet is typical piles. Yet, still I question this. Next, my FBC came back normal and he told me that the other results for liver, kidneys etc... aren't back yet but if there was anything wrong with them, my fbc would have been out of whack. Yet still I am fearing the phone ringing or a letter coming in the post to say the doc wants to see me. I truly believe there is no helping me. I won't believe anyone, what the hell is wrong with me?