Can anyone identify with this? I'm not sure if this is menopause related or just me!
I was made redundant three years ago from a really good post that I had been in for over 10 years. After that I struggled to find another job and at the time I had severe anemia due to really heavy periods so I really didn't have the energy to pursue much.
When I did find something it wasn't what I wanted but it was a job - I really now want to progress with my career and get back into a job that I enjoy.....but I panic everytime I get an interview and I end up cancelling, making up excuses such as too low paid, too far away, too little hours!!
I get excited when I get the call to come for interview then on the day I feel sick and scared and feel that maybe I should stay were I am as even though the job isn't great I feel safe there, its like I cant mess it up!
I'm 47 and still classed as peri menopausal, I though I was post meno until I had a bleed this year after 13 months, my gynae checked it out and said all was fine and technically it should be 24 months before a woman is classed as post meno.
I feel like a failure, so much that I lie to family and friends and tell them I went for the job but it just wasn't for me! I was never like this before and I am terrified that this wreck is me forever!
I have lost myself and I am not sure if this is all my own doing or another side effect of my hormones.....Any thoughts would be gratefully received ladies..
Angela.x