thanks so much ladies. I agree about the 'early menopause' thing and it's a classic worry to feel we're too young to be going through it, even at 40. But you know, i suspect more women than let on begin to feel issues in their mid 40s but jsut will not talk about it. Silly really, since we all go through it. But i was wondering, when have I EVER, just in the course of normal life, seen a lady have a 'meltdown' and then say 'sorry folks, menopause'. I have not ever encountered that, so i assumed i was the weakest one in the world, because i am getting close to having to say to people 'oops, sorry, a little menopausal moment' . And i am 45 ... so actually, it occurred to me that even though i assume my peers are 'fine and ok' and fully charged up an huge amounts of wonderful natural oestrogen, and not feeling it yet .... i wonder whether a few of them are beginning to feel a few wobbles but won't admit to it, esp since i read on this forum that so many women even around 45 or so are feeling like this!!
on Christmas day our little adopted boy, who we adore, woke us up at 5.30 am for his presents. I managed to coax him to snuggle up in our bed, hoping we would all fall back to sleeps. but then 'bang', an enormous menopausal panic came on for me. So i was hovering over him, trying to make the right noises about his presents, at 5.45 am, telling husband 'im having an attack', and then trying to still look normal to the boy! Anyway, i managed, but it was weird indeed. The boy can't possibly understand what menopause is, and i suspect that for much of his childhood he'll see me like this. I guess the only thing i could hope is that when he's `16, i might well be finished with all of this upheaval, so maybe that will balance out a bit so that when he's at his testosterone worst, i will be more hormonally balanced for once. ACtually, with premature ovarian failure, i have been 'menopausal' since age 32 and actually, i can barely remember i time when i was NOT suffering from it all so i have had real bad luck.
also i felt unprepared for menopause. I genuinely thought it was just a thing where there was lots of mysterious heavy bleeding and a few flushes and sweats. I had no idea there was so much to it, and for so long potentially.
it's the general anxiety i dislike. I would normally describe myself as 'uptight', but essentially in control and pretty self confident and competent socially and professionally. And yet i find myself feeling like a shadow of my 'former self' and feeling nervous about the smallest things i could do easily at age 22 and i feel sad about that.
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