Well, here's another update...
I started on 25 Estrodot patch back in March, along with utrogestan 100mg - and I stopped the Cerazette/desogestrel
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I bled lightly for a few days and then stopped and had no endo pain or symptoms. The majority of my worst symptoms stopped, but I still had a few.
After 2 weeks, I upp-ed the 25 to 50 Estrodot (as advised). After a week at 50, I bled for about 5-7 days. But still only light normal cramping and no endo pains.
After another week, I started the testosterone. By this point, I felt fantastic. I was also using Vagifem 2x weekly and Ovestin externally 2-3x a week, along with YES OB. The only symptom I still have at all, is joint pain and constipation (more on that below).
The complication is that, after about 3 weeks at 50 Estrodot, my ovaries suddenly "woke up", it felt like
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I bled for about 3 days and I had sharp stabby pains from both ovaries and was very much "aware" of their presence even when they weren't hurting(!). I still get that very occasionally now, but it's much better. More worryingly, I did then start to get some of my old familiar endo pains back in the old familiar locations from 8 years ago.
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I don't know how much this was due to starting HRT and how much it was due to stopping the Cerazette, but I suspect mainly the latter. Maybe I should have taken the advice to stay on the Cerazette - but I also felt like I had to try and at least give myself the chance to stop it.
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I am currently just giving it some time and waiting to see if it settles down. The pain is not associated with bleeding (but neither were these pains in the past when I had endo 8 years ago), they happen throughout the cycle and are just weird aches and twinges and dull pains in specific places I've come to learn. (Off my left hip, off my pubic bone on the left.)
Besides the possible endo return, the other complication is that I've been suffering from
really bad constipation. I think, due to the utrogestan. I eat loads of fibre (chia seeds, flax seeds, banana, 2x kiwis, lots of veg and healthy foods - low carb and no refined sugars) and I take magnesium citrate/glycinate 300mg daily, triphala, Optifibre and 1-2 Dulcoease stool softeners a day - but it is a constant and daily battle. My gut just feels really inert and still and like the lining is thick...
I don't know what to do about the constipation. It may be that I need more estrogen - and that will get my gut working. Or perhaps I need to try a patch with a synthetic progesterone, so that it can bypass my gut and liver and hopefully not affect it so much?? I don't really want to try the Newson idea of increasing the utrogestan to 200mg, given 100mg is making me constipated! We also don't have research into using 200mg utrogestan on a continuous basis (daily) long-term for many years.
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I don't want to take only 100mg vaginally, because I worry that will not suppress endo in other locations around my abdomen, it will only work on the uterus. (For the same reason, I'm a bit reluctant to consider the Mirena coil - in case it only works locally on the uterus and not so much on other deposits. I know it's supposed to be okay for endo sufferers as HRT progesterone though... )
I have an appointment with a GP locally to try to get some bloods run. (Estrogen, testosterone and SHBG plus T3 and T4 for thyroid.) But I don't know if they will agree - given that I am getting HRT from a private clinic. I will try...
If the endo issues continue or get worse, or if I need more estrogen, I will probably have to go back on Cerazette as well as the HRT. I don't really want to do this. I worry about taking synthetic progesterone at all, let alone combined with utrogestan. Who knows what so much progesterone long-term is doing, in terms of BC risk...? We just don't have the research on it yet. Maybe again I could try a HRT patch with a synthetic progesterone in (norethisterone??), as that might help suppress the endo better than utrogestan - and I could switch to utrogestan when I am properly menopausal and my ovaries have stopped functioning...?
And maybe I just need to have an ultrasound, check all is okay and then accept these pains are 'normal' for me and get on with my life. If I can do that. (I am a worrier.) If I don't bleed and get endo period 'attacks' anymore and it's just these occasional abdominal pains, perhaps I just need to learn they are normal for me and accept them rather than taking even more progesterone.
Anyway, that's an update. I don't know if anyone reads this but I figured there might be some person in the future with endo and wanting to start HRT or on Cerazette and it might be useful if someone does a search for it. It's all a bit of a minefield.
But one thing I know for sure: My body needed estrogen badly and was falling apart and failing without it. No matter the struggles of figuring out a progesterone solution and not stirring up endo in all this, I don't regret starting HRT and I will choose to live like this with estrogen, than without.