Good, the trolls got deleted, unfortunately half my thread got deleted with them.
After those really nasty comments from you know who you are, I didn't get a moment's peace last night.
I kept wondering why are they taking the "urine" out of me. Why are they laughing about it? Why are they saying having to wait under two weeks is just the same as waiting ten months plus six before that when the bleeding wasn't referred as abnormal because I'd just started HRT?
Why are they saying it's the same?
They have to be taking the urine, right?
Why?
Are these just over-entitled people, laughing at my situation of not living in a tory constituency? Not being seen within two weeks isn't funny. Having to wait since this bleeding started in May 2022 for a first initial scan when I've had precancer before isn't funny.
All evening and all night it went around in my head, if they are genuine then they must think I am talking about how serious the disease is, dunno how anyone could take that from what I wrote about the general length of waiting lists, but I started this thread because I'm frightened, not so someone could start attacking me about apparantly belittling their condition when I didn't say a thing about it except to be supportive, which anyone can see if they care to look.
I wasn't comparing disease at all because I was refusing to think of cancer and
I didn't mention it before this post. Those are the questions that have tormented me since yesterday and it's had me in tears a few times.
All I could think as a reply is, "They are assuming you have cancer and think you are are belittling septicemia or whatever I'm supposed to have done, from the position of having something worse."
Btw I would never belittle anyone's suffering, but I'll get over strangers judging me, lol, that doesn't matter.
What does matter is that I have thought of nothing else all night, not slept, probably won't now in the run up to the scan.
So I searched here yet again for similar stories to mine and eventually I found one from a few years ago, long time to have noone else have this sort of postmenopausal bleeding.
I read this story, yes, exactly like me, yes, I agree doctors don't have a clue, and I was feeling quite comforted by this lady who also didn't believe anything was wrong.
On page 2 of the thread she is diagnosed with cancer and has a hysterectomy soon after.
I'm in tears again.
This is what I've avoided thinking all this time and it took the shock of a troll to get me thinking about it and also get past that blockage that denys all knowledge of cancer.
It was the same the last time. When I had precancerous cells removed from my cervix and my cervix was cauterised to prevent more growths, I didn't believe them. I went along with it, but I didn't feel any symptoms and nearly did a runner before the procedure, I'm such a chicken.
They insist it was precancerous then but I don't trust them at all.
I can't stop shaking now
Please don't delete any more of my threads moderators, unless it's really necessary of course, I look back over what I've written for info & dates of feeling this way or that, but I certainly understand why you stepped in this time, thank you, I appreciate it.