Hello childofnature. Beautiful name.
Welcome to you. everyone on this forum will be full of support for you, and are Happy to answer any questions or give advice whatever the subject of how odd it may seem. Am sure we have all felt very lonely, vulnerable and just overwhelmed physically and emotionally. And quite often there may be a lack of stability in how these symptoms alter.
Do you have a good support from your gp, for both meno symptoms and the depression? Both these often to hand in hand.
You are not alone in this I can assure you. X