I totally understand your fears. I suffer badly from health anxiety, all focused around fear of cancer, no other illness. It took me over a year to pluck the courage up to start hrt and I'm so glad I did. I do believe there is a part of my anxiety that is hormonally driven and which my anti depressant didn't reach (although it defimitely helps, i need both!). It'd flare up at certain times of the month amd then abate. I manage any perceived risk (and believe me I am scared of soooo many things that can contribute to cancer) by living as healthy a life as possible, eating well, exercising, all things in moderation, and by taking part in regular screenings offered to me so that any things are caught early. But I do agree with CKLD that it does come down to quality of life and that's the thing that tipped it for me, my quality of life was so diminished with all the peri symptoms, that the potential benefit ended up outweighing the risk. Do you have a nice doctor you can talk to who can provide some reassurance or just at least help put things in perspectivf a bit re the currenr risk rather than all the outdated stuff that still circulates? x