Hello losingtheplot,
Yes, our own hormonal ups and downs seem very similar. I too am so reassured when others seem to feel the same way. It gives me a level of having someone understand and I feel less alone.
Strangely I also relate very well to you knowing the difference between depression and anxiety. I weaned myself off ADs last year and I KNOW that what I have now is definitely not depression like you realise too, both debilitating, but as Flossie says, you know your body best.
I am still working my way through how to deal with this. Am at a stage of almost not fighting things,but trying to accept this is how it is.don't get me wrong, I hate being like this I am a completely different person to how I was in many aspects. But fighting against it worsens my anxiety, so I am learning to slow down, cut myself some slack, yet not dipping into wallowing in self pity!
Am so glad you are ensuring you keep your gp. Appt. Maybe make a few short notes, kind of bullet points, in case you feel a bit flustered on the day of the appt? So easy to come away and think I should have asked that!
Also as to how to cope when you really cannot face going out and being around people, in small cases, like someone knocking on the door, I wimp out and get my husband to go...but actually getting out that door to a planned 'event', I have found it is actually far better than I anticipated.....for me,
I try to set a 'leaving time' if possible, as My anxiety can mean that I worry about not having enough time to do chores once I get home. God I sound a wreck don't I?
Basically, I make little methods to help keep me in track. Notes of what I would like to archive each day, and (mostly) no longer freak out when stuff gets left.
You meditate, I walk. Both essential times just for ourselves. Keep on being kind to yourself. No one wants this, it is a struggle, but remember you are so strong to be able to speak out.
Do feel free to let loose you feelings and worries, I don't have that elusive magic wand, but I do understand.
Hugs to you x