Oh Kathleen,
I'm sad to read your post but I can identify with the feelings of when is this going to be over (and I've just started peri proper!).
I did the MBSR course a few years ago to help me deal with the physical and mental angst of not finding the right thyroid dose for 8.5 years and we were taught to go with our feelings and sensations (both physical and mental).
We were taught how to say "Hello sadness, irritation, anger, etc." and lay out the welcome mat and just observe. You have to be still to see what happens, just sit with it all. Quite often, the feelings dissipate, or aren't quite so full on when you actually go right up and feel them.
But... I've been having a return of the horrible Big Dippers (night sweats accompanied by rolling nausea and anxiety) and low mood and to be honest, sometimes I really just don't want to sit and acknowledge any of it... The only thing that gets me through the night horrors is gulping in air and repeating in my head, this will pass, this will pass...
And then a new day dawns, and I haven't corked it in the night time, and lo and behold I'll see a wee robin or something and feel joy!
Now I'm off to hug a tree (joke).
I hope you get your HRT regime tweaked during your appointment. Fingers crossed.
We're all in this together, and we'll all come out to some sort of acceptable other side too!
xxx