Hi Rhinoslass,
So sorry to hear about your pain, I understand how it’s giving you these horrible thoughts. I don’t know much about vulvodynia, but I am just coming through an episode of VA which really has affected how I live my life. The main medical thing that has helped is using ovestin every day. It has been two months, but I can now seethe light at the end of the tunnel. I was already on vagifem 3x a week when this bout started, sodotake your vagifem and ovestin more. I told my GP when I couldn’t reduce the dose and she was fine about me using it daily on a repeat, she also suggested increasing my everol from 50 to 75 which I am doing gradually. Again I would consider this if you can. Please speak to your nurse or GP about how you feel, and take any help they can give you, but please also know that we are also here if you need us.