Hi Weeloz,
I also have health anxiety and I was so afraid of HRT that I suffered debilitating hot flushes for 5 years. Last year I finally realised how miserable my life had been and started HRT. Somehow my health anxiety relating to this dropped, maybe due to the positive effect of HRT. But now I had a breakthrough bleeding and I am on long waiting list for a scan. Again, initially I was mortified, spoke to a GP who said that they do not want to investigate as this is normal (!?!). I asked dr Currie for advice and asked for second opinion in my surgery. The other GP did a check and referred me for scan. Because of the initial wrong advice and long wait I am now looking forward to the scan rather than being anxious about it, very strange... and I am hoping that I will not have to stop HRT. I also somehow think that all will be OK. But this is today, tomorrow it might be different, there is always that fear.
I have for last 5 years tried to find a way to deal with my anxiety with meditation, reading a lot about this, jorainbow advice is great. Once when you face these feelings and allow them to be they kind of subside, as they just want to be heard and then they can go. During my CBT treatment I was encouraged to do so and I found it interesting when I first time addressed my early morning dread with 'good morning dread' rather than being scared of it. But I do still have health anxiety and google everything, but maybe I am a bit better in dealing with it.