HI Aurelia (like your Forum handle!),
It does sound possible that hrt could be bringing out the depression. I have underlying depression too and take fluoxetine (prozac). Based on my own personal experience, there could be a few tweaks to try. I started on Evorel Conti 50 (I am postmenopausal) in April and got more and more tearful and angry over the 3 months I stuck it out. Not more depressed though. You say you were crying in front of your daughter - would that have been something your depression might have caused previously, or does the tearfulness seem to be linked to starting HRT? I didn't get PMT of tearfulness either.
I asked my gp to swap me to Utrogestan for progesterone component to try and reduce side effects. He suggested reducing the estrogen element too so I am now on Estradot 25 (ie half the level I was getting on the Evorel patch) and Utrogestan 100 mg 24 days from 28. I have just switched to taking Utrogestan vaginally last week (after 6 weeks orally) and it has made a big difference already - less bloating and I am much less angry/tearful. It is a wee bit of a performance (I have 2 wombs
) but worth it for the result.
The BMS seems to suggest starting on the lowest estrogen dose poss, trialling it for 3 months, then going up if symptoms not resolved. If you were started on 50, which seems to be fairly standard NHS practice, it's not the lowest dose. Some folk can be sensitive to estrogen too and only need half of a 25 patch to make them feel better. I personally felt a load better in the 4 days when I had taken the Evorel patch off altogether so wasn't getting either estrogen or progesterone. But I am only changing one element of my hrt at a time as otherwise I won't know what is making me feel better (hopefully!).
I really feel for you as we all want our lives back and having to be faffing around increasing and decreasing doses is a right pain. I am also keeping a mood diary and a food diary to see if any patterns emerge (will be a thrilling read for future generations
)
Really hope you feel better soon, Chucklesista x