I’m sorry to hear you are unable to visit your doctor, I was like that a long time and only recently went after actually having therapy. I had left a lump for years that I shouldn’t of so I do get how you feel. Now I have got through it, I know that I’ve given myself such worries and stress about the lump that could have been avoided had I not waited- it turned out to be fine. If you are only 5 months without a period, this kind of thing can happen. My friend had her period come back in small amounts of and on over two years before she went a full 12 months without one. So while unexplained bleeding should be investigated, in your current position it is more likely that this is related to perimenopause. However, I recommend for your own health to look into therapy, you can do online video sessions and mine are really affordable. I also use good therapy videos on YouTube. I know how daunting and hard it is, but I do encourage you to address this problem. Avoidance is a coping mechanism for anxiety, which I totally have done and understand. However, long term avoidance will prevent you from living your life fully and in this kind of case could affect your physical health also. Again, you have my sympathies because this is a really big struggle and it’s not nice to have to go through it. I hope you feel well enough soon to visit your doctor, please do consider working towards that.