Hi Nik2502.
I was like you for two weeks until the HRT arrived. It was last July. I was terrified and housebound due to anxiety.
The only thing that helped me was to put on a pair of sunglasses (to hide behind!) and go out for a walk. Sounds easy but was very, very hard. Can you try this even though you won’t want to?
I did it every morning for half an hour, it really, really helped to overcome the fear.
Sending hugs.
V.xx