I’m sorry you’re struggling so much right now Nik2502.
I had an awful reaction to HRT… but an even worse one coming off it. It sent me into a full blown nervous breakdown.
The thing that saved me was venlafaxine…. So I’m really sorry it’s not working for you. That sounds like a crazy high dosage you were on!
If tapering off is too much for you right now have you heard of adding in martazepine? They call the combination Californian rocket fuel!
Apart from diazepam, I was prescribed phenergan, which is a antihistamine. I took it at night. It helped me sleep, and stopped the early morning panic and sickness I woke up with. It’s also non addictive, which I preferred over the diazepam.
Some of us are just super sensitive to any chemical changes in our bodies, be that HRT or ADs… I even get dizzy with paracetamol!!