Hi Jesse blue, I really feel for you and can strongly identify with your fear, I too have terrible health anxiety, a big phobia for me is taking medication because of side effects especially antibiotics, I had a uti last may first proper one I've had in my life, I ignored it for the first 3 days thinking I could clear it on my own, drinking lots of water, and using canesten cystitis sachets, that was a big mistake, the infection got so bad I ended up in out of hours gp, I was given marcobid, by this point I lost all fear of antibiotics because I was in so much pain I was passing bright red blood, I took the antibiotics and other than a bit of loose bowels on the last day I was fine, please do not think an infection will clear itself they can become very serious if left, if I had gone to the gp straight away I could of spared myself the misery I suffered as I literally couldn't get off the loo due to the intense need to wee, I too couldn't use vagifem for the same reasons as you, there are other alternatives to try so you should talk to your gp, health anxiety is difficult especially when you fear medications, I have really struggled with this I have tryed AD meds difficult when you fear taking it, I done CBT, which by no means cured me but helped me cope better, also there's some amazing online support groups which are worth reading and joining for support from people in the same boat, I hope you find relief, but don't leave a suspected uti it's not worth risking.