After waiting for my doctor to get an answer from a consultant I have been able to have an estrogen patch again it's a low dose 25mcg but I'm fine with that for now. As I have had a blood clot I thought they would say thats it for HRT but no it's fine because I am on blood thinners the gp said ,I felt so ill without it I am so glad I didn't give up and live feeling dreadfull probably for ever.