Gingercatmom I have the exact same feelings as you. I absolutely dread the days I am home alone which is quite a lot.
I wake anytime from 3am onwards and never really get back to sleep because of these feelings
I try to keep busy throughout the day with different things
I also have elderly parents living about 40 mins away who I visit 3-4 times a week and cook, clean etc for so this keeps me occupied too
When I’m home I go for walks, clean the house, cook, anything to keep me constantly busy
I also find that by the evening time I feel fine, but know when I get into bed that it will all start over again
I keep in my mind that hopefully all this will pass
Hugs to you and hope you find something that will help xx