I've been ill ever since my first Covid jab in April with heart palpitations every single day. I was wary to take the vaccine but did so because I foolishly thought if I did I would be able to go out without a mask. Had a 24 heart monitor done in July and am still waiting on the results. A backlog seemingly and according to doctor they are only on the ones done in May!!!! In actual fact I have never yet seen a doctor face to face since April. I was even asked to 'take my pulse' over the phone. I will NOT have my booster. I have anxiety which is now ruining my life. I can't wear a facemask, probably exempt, but neither do I want to declare to the world (or the small nosey town I live in) that I have a 'hidden disability' by wearing a lanyard round my neck. For me masks should be optional then no one knows why you are not wearing one. I cry about them every day, I can't go out anymore, other than a walk every now and again. Live for me is over, I'm afraid, it's merely just an existence. I am so bloody fed up of everyone on tv (Susannah Reid, Adil Ray this morning) almost wetting their pants about people not wearing masks. NOBODY is stopping anyone from wearing a mask, wear one if you want, but the people that say it's easy, are not me. It's not easy, it's ruining my life. I'm in Scotland and we don't have a choice. Someone has to get my shopping, I need to go to the dentist, but had to cancel, I need to go to the optician but had to cancel. I cant go to the bank etc. my life has not changed since the first lockdown last March. What I'd like to know (and it's a genuine question, and one I'd like to ask Susannah 'pouty' Reid), is everyone who thinks masks should be mandatory again (Plan B) happy to go into cafes and restaurants and sit maskless eating and drinking. Does the virus not get down to table level?. Or is Covid something that just spreads in Sainsburys. My parents friends went out for coffee a couple of weeks ago, following guidelines, and are now both in hospital with Covid, (both double jabbed). We are all double jabbed now, boosters now being administered, we can do no more, are we going to wear masks forever more? When will it be the right time to stop wearing them? Honestly, are people happy to wear a mask for ever? We are being told we will have to live with Covid, it's here to stay, if masks continue to be mandatory (forever?) then I really don't want to be here anymore. I know this is extreme, but it's so bloody hard listening to everyone bleating on and on about them. My husband and I drove to England last weekend so that I could go out for a meal (first time since a year past February) and it was lovely, for a day I got my life back, but I fear it will be a long long time before I can do that again. Life is just horrid.