Hi I'm new to the forum, have read many posts but never posted before so apologies if I'm posting in the wrong place, still working out how this works.
So I just give you some background about my situation, I have been on hrt for 4 years and have never felt good on it, I'm plagued by nasty side effects and generally fed up of trying to get it right, 5 years ago at age 43 I had an hysterectomy but retained ovaries, 7 months post op, blood test says I was menopausal, as I was feeling dizzy all the time and awful insomnia so I requested gp test me, started on estrogel 2xpumps, actually got on OK with it, still suffered horrible insomnia but at around 8 months was constantly getting thrush comfirmed by swabs done by doctor, thrush is listed as a side effect on estrogel but when I asked gp he said he doubt it was the cause never suffered thrush in my life until I used estrogel, changed to everol 50,thrush went but horrible acid reflux, lower back pain, bloating, anxiety, insomnia got worse, shaky weak legs, awful ear congestion and headaches spent the next 3 years going from everol 25,50 and 75 trying to find a balance to no avail, gp is pretty rubbish I generally have to tell them what I want, also had problems with patch sticking generally didn't like them as prefer the gel method, then may this year asked gp for estrodot patch read good things about it plus its tiny compared to everol, started on 50,but felt absolutely awful, all the above side effects, but also had severe neck shoulder pain, aching chest hot sweats and felt very jittery, and lightheaded to the point I didn't feel safe going out or driving so gp moved me to estrodot 75 saying due to my age now 48 I need the higher dose, and my symptoms were low estrogen although they will not test me, well the estradot 75 where complete hell, the above got worse and while on it I developed a very bad uti, antibiotics sorted it but was now left with constant burning vulva, frequent urination to an unbearable level, the side effects got bad so stopped estradot and went back to everol and I have always done the 3 months on any new hrt, I asked gp for vagifem, absolutely a nightmare made every thing worse the swelling and burning was something else, I stopped that after 3 months, and used nothing vaginally and it all calmed down and felt normal again, decided that patches just are not for me, so I am now am back to estrogel up to 3x pumps a day, now back to ear congestion lightheaded, bloated, awful headache, insomnia, jittery and burning vulva and bladder irritation again, tryed ovestin for that, but same effect as vagifem bad swelling and burning, haven't been back to gp yet, as I'm just trying to ride it out, but I've reacted worse to estrogel this time, so I guess my question is should I now just accept hrt is not going to work for me, are there ladies out there struggling like me what did you do, I've lost so much of my life to this, I suffer horrible anxiety anyway and I feel like I have no quality of life, Im ill all the time, everyone talks about estrogen being the wonder hormone and I'm lucky not to have to use progesterone but this definitely is not the case for me, any advise would be appreciated, sorry this is so long.