Morning
As a lifelong anxiety sufferer I’m used to the symptoms and how it can make me feel, especially with health anxiety and ‘what if’ seemingly ruling my life. But when push comes to shove, I’ve always coped well with a real crisis - losing my sister, mum, moving house etc.
However more recently (and I’m sure Covid hasn’t helped) I feel less able to cope as my body seems to react even when I think I feel ok mentally. Things seem to be reaching a head right now. We have two collies aged 4 and 7 who are our life and in the past fortnight I was told the older one needed an operation to remover her anal glands (that wasn’t a huge surprise but still upsetting) and then less than 2 weeks ago the younger collie has suddenly gone blind which has been devastating.
Years back, whilst this would have upset me I would have coped. The gland op was yesterday by the way. But now - and for the past few days - I seem to be having physical symptoms I haven’t had before - tingling, upset tummy, feeling spaced out, terrified in the middle of the night to name a few. My question is, do you think the body can throw a whole host of physical symptoms at you even if you think you are coping as best you can mentally? I hope this makes sense, I think it probably is stress but my health anxiety is through the roof with it all - and so the vicious circle goes on. In a nutshell it’s as if I am telling myself ‘you’re ok, you are coping’ and my body is saying ‘not a chance’
Thanks just for reading as I’m feeling so low.