Nobody warns you do they? that this part of a womans life can change you beyond recognition. Who is this scared, depressed and confused person?
Oh by the way hi! I'm 46 and new to some pretty dreadful feelings. I've had low level anxiety and depression that's been around maybe 10 years on and off. Then 45 happened, and I started to display a few signs of what I now appreciate to be perimenopause. I went to my Dr who gave me fluoxetine, this was dreadful (for me) and I went back to see a fantastic lady GP my own age who put me on HRT. I can say for me it's working, my low mood has overall improved a lot but I still have a few utterly desperate days through the month (this month I'm on day 4 of it)
It manifests as being completely flat so nothing can make me smile or laugh, I don't want to do anything, speak to anyone, personal care goes out of the window. I have really bad thoughts constantly. Essentially life becomes joyless , something I endure.
How on earth do you cope at work when you become a shadow of yourself? I've achieved nothing at work this week.
And at home, my partner of 5 years is suddenly having to navigate a woman who seems to have an off button. I'm never nasty or snappy at all, I am just not present, locked in my own head.
Does this get better or worse as you progress?
Any thoughts at all are greatly appreciated.
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