Hi all
Thank you for all your replies, which I have mulled over, and then slept on things.
Yes, my sister knows what he is like, and she has chosen to stick with him, no matter what, and that is her absolute right. I never expected her to divorce him.. after all, she stuck by him after he was vile to my poor mum, they made out she was nasty, she stuck by him after he pinned their then 15 year old daughter to the wall by her throat (would you believe he is a teacher!!), I could go on, but no need.
Anyway, you are all absolutely right. I feel for my sister, she is now stuck isolated with him (although he does obviously go out, but wont allow their son to see them??), and she is seriously ill. But, its what she wants.
I need to stop him messing with my head and as you all say, live my life as best I can. Stop waiting for her to see me, if it was going to happen, it would have happened by now.
Onwards, and hopefully upwards.
I feel so humbled that you have all taken the time to post on here to me, I am so lucky that there is an amazing bunch of women out there...
With love
Jeepers xxxxxxxxx