All things menopause / Re: 51 and on the crazy train
? on: Today at 01:21:07 PM ?
I'm just unravelling some issues after a further bout of crying hysterics at work.....been home since 21st April..doctor has signed me not fit for 3 weeks. I have been doing split office shifts and shopping for myself and aging father... near deserted office..but I wanted to travel as keyworker 4 and see some co workers to keep normal as possible. I thought I was coping till the outburst.
Well been back at work since February,
after Occ health phone call and report finally got working hours reduced to 30 hours, no work Wednesdays. All my work was still being checked, and been given critical feedback, which I understand. Review with manager every week, I have never liked scrutiny of any kind, after having a very vocal critical mother... self esteem, is something I have always lacked- reliant on a strong father who is now 83. My non habitual male partner has been very supportive of my crying..
..mood swings, discussion on anxiety, depression, peri menopause... plus all the physical details.
I'm going to have a review of thyroxine blood test, and keep estragel n provena and same dose setraline...I am now on responsible for myself, my father can now shop for himself for has neighbours that have taken over this from me.
I just couldnt say to work, I wasnt coping, just burst into tears after someone asked how I was and told Manager going home.
Work know I am being treated for
anxiety /peri menopause.. So I'm taking the time to unravel.. after two days of crying..and spotting...
I am figuring it out. I have Occ health advisors I can ring.. I'm lucky my non habitual partner has been soo supportive.. let's see if no work and just me can figure it all out...
I'm on my crazy train journey..keep safe..
One of the train passengers on the JOURNEY OF LIFE..toot toot...
I appreciate the fact I can left offsome steam here.... Talking about me has never been easy..but old School...