Hi, Thank you for allowing me to join I really could do with a little advice on which way to go please? A bit of background info.... I'm almost 47 and started this whole crazy journey at age 41 with peri symptoms which I didn't have a clue about! I was diagnosed with severe endometriosis prior to this and had several surgeries to clear it so what I would say was the worst ten years of my life in terms of severe pain I could not wait until menopause kicked in as I was told that often is the cure. So sure enough as soon as peri kicked in I got major relief from pain, hallelujah...... the suddenly my body was taken over by this crazy woman, horrendous night sweats, anxiety, brain fog etc. I was referred to a menopause specialist and as I had gone a year without a period I was prescribed Everol 25 with daily Utrogesten 100mg, symptoms didn't improve and was moved to Everol 50 and then to 75. Started to feel a lot better in myself but still had mood problems and crazy unhinged moments were still there but all other symptoms disappeared by this time I had been on HRT for 16 months. I Started to have breakthrough bleeding and had to have a hysteroscopy as doctor suspected womb cancer, thankfully all clear however my womb lining was 9cm. By this time endo pain returned as I was warned this could happen as the hormones are feeding the endo but it was bearable. Specialist not happy about that and the breakthrough bleeding, wanted me to have the mirena but I asked for time to think about it as I have several friends who gave me scare stories so kind of put me off. She then said I could take Provera tablet instead of the Utrogesten but wanted me to come of the HRT completely for 2 weeks before starting it again afresh with the provera tablet. Now the thing is I was dreading coming off even for just 2 weeks however I felt so good being off it after 2 weeks that I haven't started the patches again nor the provera but felt so good that I thought I was through the other side..... I think I was wrong, the night sweats have started again and the joint pain is bad and also vaginal atrophy is not good and my mood is still low but not as crazy if that makes sense. I just don't know whether to start the HRT again or stay off it, I'm worried the specialist won't be too happy that I havent re started it like she told me to and I have a follow up the end of this month, I also have ostepena so I know the HRT is good for my bones. I think what I am trying to ask in all this rambling is it possible that I'm through the worst or are the symptoms likely to come back even more so after almost 5 weeks clear of HRT or should I just bite the bullet and go back on it? Also would like to add that interestingly I haven't had a single endo related pain or bled since stopping the HRT. Thanks so much for reading and apologies for rambling on, any advice greatly appreciated x