Not thinking to do stuff or things dont dawn on me when patently obvious. We have a sheet pinned up at work where we have food items to sort daily , it alternates so amount done on Wed will be done again on Fri. Each batch has to written on that day and crossed out previous workings. So started meno rubbish as i started working there , forgetting to write in batches or crossing out batches or worst of all missing one. So to cover my tracks bosses started reading the sheet to me, even though id already read it. How depressing is it already doing a very routine job to then , at 50 be read to like a child. Then hrt got to even keel and all passable . Over a year has passed , proved not a problem, then this month it started again. The good thing is at first they didnt notice, and i involve strategies for most problems . They know in the past few weeks i had very disturbed sleep so passed it off with that as one day was evident . I immediately get down as i already feel like a loser having to give up college which was supposed to see me onto a possible career path and out of min wage repetative task stuff which has been all working life. I now feel stuck and hopeless on occasions. I add bosses are lovely folk so i try to keep gob shut re job as theyd be insulted and no, i dont think folk on min wage jobs are losers, all underappreciated heroes. I just wanted my life to be in a different place by 50.
There is other stuff i miss or dont think of i previously would at home so now my confidence in doing anything scary ie i wanted to buy a campervan to rent out as a wee sideline with some spare cash as investment with a minimal but steady return. Now scared and resigned to not doing it as no confidence to drive it to places for customers, scared ill miss something vital in arrangements ie insurance and that ill muck up the bookings.
