Hello there, it's been a very long time since I've visited. If this is moved to another, more appropriate thread, or deleted, that's fine and sorry in advance.
I don't really know where to start. I've been going through the menopause for some 10 years and I've been on various different types of HRT during that time, mainly for night sweats. I've just changed from Tridestra on to Femoston Conti (think my GP is now at her wits end and running out of options!)
I thought that symptoms might start getting better, the older I got (I'm 54 this year) but they just seem to be getting worse. To the point where I actually hate myself and the way I'm feeling and what I've become. I feel fat, ugly, permanently hormonal (either in a rage, or tearful to the point of sobbing uncontrollably) frightened and anxious. I'm very argumentative, even when there's nothing really to argue about. I hurt. My bones ache. I get rashes up my arms, that itch to the point where I could rip my skin. I have shocking nightmares. Night sweats. All, according to my GP, possibly menopause related? There's endless symptoms.
I don't even know why I've written all this on here? To get it off my chest? To ask if there is anyone else who is feeling the same way? I feel so totally alone. I can't really speak to my husband - he's a bloke! And my elderly mum (who lives with us and I care for) is so wrapped up in her own health issues there's no point in talking to her. I've become a bit of a loaner - avoiding friends due to the way I'm feeling. I actually don't recognise myself anymore and, if I don't like myself, how will anyone else like me.
Sorry for rambling. And sorry again.