Hia Joe!
I must say your header filled me with fear lol
I've only been on hrt for 10 weeks but was thinking only this morning about what will happen to my body if I stopped hrt in say 5 years, i'm 51.
What you describe is I think worse of a shock for you having started hrt quite young. You didn't mention your current age, but where most ppl start taking hrt in their early 50's, and your body is already on the decline so it's less of a shock coming out of the other side.
I wish you could expand and tell us more on the ways you've feel you changed, and that others would join in with their post hrt experiences, as I haven't seen any posts of this nature on here before.
Sorry I can't be of any help to you, other than to say your probably still beautiful in everyone else's eyes, we are our own worst critics. Don't be so hard on yourself if you can try to be kind to the person staring back at you in that mirror
Peace
TD