How is everyone? After a massive low, I'm now on a huge high
I am now left with no doubt that poor sleep quality is my problem and my poor sleep quality is caused by my general level of anxiety. I had a wake up moment last week when I woke up after one dreadful night again and I thought that's it. No more rushing to the doctor, worrying about worrying about 3 erything and my new motto is going to become 'I don't care'.
Well so far, it is doing wonders! I don't care if my boss isn't happy with my work (I'm sure he is but I spend all my time convinced he isn't and looking for signs of it to worry about it), that my OH is upset with me (he might be at times, ut I know he still loves me deeply), that my teenage son is not getting top grades (it's his life and he still has plet y of time to find the motivation to give his best) and that everything in life is frightening. As a matter of fact, I've even decided to do something for the first time in 30cyearsxthstconly last week was an sblolute no go. I've decided that it was time to stop letting it hold me bs k and after I do it a few times, I'll be fine with it.
Well amazingly, this week, I've slept better than I have done in over 2xueafs and yep, it's giving me an energy I forgot I'd ever had. So that's that! I can only hope that the mentality last but even if it doesn't, that's the pla e I'll have to find again because the sense of freedom from it all is amazing.
9ne thing I've heard said quite often by women who've got over the menopause is that: that they don't care what others think anymore and feel so much better afterwards, maybe I've just had a flash of what's to come