What a spiteful and frankly childish remark from that GP. More proof that too many HCP don't believe in hormonal/reproductive depression, and thanks to their ignorance they consign too many women to suffer needlessly.
It was only when I finally read Prof Studd's website that I finally connected the dots between my 30 years of odd moods and occasionally outrageous behaviour to my HORMONES.
The only times I have suffered with any MH issues was during times of hormonal upheaval.
1. Just before I reached puberty I inexplicably suffered with sudden night terrors and feelings of doom (I was lucky to have enjoyed a happy childhood until then). Luckily these issues didn't last long, but were replaced by...
2. PMS sometimes quite bearable, others months I would suffer sudden rages, feelings of hopelessness, and instigated huge rows with various boyfriends. I could be a nightmare, I admit. Taking the Pill made no difference and often made it worse. Infact...
3. Starting a new brand of the Pill when I was at university caused a sudden awful flat mood and depression which lasted 8 months, with no relief. Everyone told me it was the stress of studying and exams ( except I enjoyed studying and always performed well in exams). I don't think it a coincidence that when I changed to a different brand of the Pill the awful depression lifted and I was 'just' left with PMS once a month (for a whole bloody week).
4. Having my first baby - within 2 days of giving birth I knew something was very wrong. I felt so flat, filled with despair and just didn't see the point of living. Within 3 weeks I was diagnosed with severe PND and my lovely Mum had to virtually move in with us to help take care of the baby. I was prescribed ADs but it took months to feel better, and 2 years before I felt fully recovered.
5. Finally, as I turned 40 I noticed my PMS was getting steadily worse and lasting longer and longer. By the time I turned 42 I was only getting maybe 10 'good' days each month. Then in Oct. 2013 the PMS didn't go away and it felt so much worse, just never ending. By Dec. 2013 I thought I was having some sort of breakdown and my GP diagnosed me with anxiety and depression (except I loved my life, absolutely nothing was wrong). Then suddenly the madness disappeared and I was fine for a few weeks. But then the madness came back, then went, then came back...I never knew from one day to the next how I would feel. I thought I was losing my marbles, no one knew what was wrong with me. ADs didn't seem to do much. I did some research and found my way to Annie Evans and she started me on 2 sachets of Sandreena gel + Utrogestan but I think it was too little, too late. I totally crashed. Couldn't bear leaving the house. Got signed off work and was referred to the Crisis Team. Suicide was never far from my thoughts. I was in such a dark place that I was terrified all the time. It was unspeakably bad. The psychiatrist I saw tried me on Trazadone which did nothing, no matter how much they upped the dose.
Eventually it was seeing Prof Studd and getting access to high doses of oestrogen which saved me. I feel better now than I ever have, really. My mood is so, so stable all the time (aside from a very occasional dip) and I feel calm and quietly cheerful. No more PMS. It's so lovely.Looking back I'm sad that I have lost so much of my daily life to hormonal interference and I hope that awareness of this illness or disease (because that's what it is) grows.