Hi Funnel
Like Jaypo said, KEEP FIGHTING!
Go to your GP, and ask for hrt, like you say, you may be able to get some, gotta be worth a try.
Also ask if they can refer you off to someone to talk to, explain what your going through,
I'm sure they'll refer you to someone. You can't carry on like this.
I'm so sorry about everything that's happened to you, I can't even start to feel how or understand how you feel, it's just devastating. So plz ask GP for help.
Please, please, keep posting, you don't have to bottle everything up, have a rant on here,
Or ask anything on here, someone's always on to talk to......
Enjoy your drink, my god, you deserve it......you've so much to deal with.
You mentioned ginger wine, my dad used to give me a glass of that years ago, he loved it, so did I,.....I'd actually forgotten all about that, so thank you.......
Jd xx.