It's the unknown that's so frightening isn't it.
Yes ! Life to this point was about patterns and rules......not at all now...
It's horrible. I'm using a towel, haven't used one for many years but I've reduced Progesterone and introduced oestrogen this last month.
And I kinda guessed I was due on but you never bloody know in peri until it happens.
If I could look at the calendar and see my due date I'd handle things much better.
I was physically comfortable 8 weeks ago, peri for 10 years, but it waa not effecting my working or life in general.
Now I have a range of truly debilitating symptoms that scared the crap out of me.
So then I had to accept them...learn to live with them , hope the HRT will make them go away.. and as you say, I learned they had a pattern and
I'd just got used to them and then BAM they ramp up along with severe depression and anxiety which as you say makes logic and reason impossible to obtain which leads to more anxiety and depression. But I have no idea why only in hindsight since this mother of all periods started
But living in fear of your own body and mind is no fun.😞 and it all hit me at once
How did our mothers generation go through this in silence??
I'm praying Oestrogen levels will sort this crap out.
Remind me are you on HRT ?