Hello Jodie and welcome from one (fairly) newbie to another! Your post made me smile ruefully because I remember well the morning I looked in the mirror and saw, as usual, an anxious, sad, knackered face looking back. But on that day I answered back with "it doesn't have to be like this .... there's no reason why all the good times should be behind me at 55" and I started on my journey to 'do something about it'. I look in the mirrow now and see someone who is a lot better informed, more relaxed, optimistic and yes, even less knackered looking. My meno experience robbed me of all confidence and replaced it with anxiety. Thanks to HRT the anxiety has gone and slowly, slowly, my confidence is returning. Very best wishes to you x