Hi, I am sorry to see you are still suffering so badly,as you know I have been where you are right now,and I know you can't see an end to it,but it will get better,you have to believe that,or you will just keep scaring yourself,I am able to cope now although I still have some problems,the anxiety is manageable,yours will be too,just hang in there and keep fighting,don't give up,you will get better.
Sending hugs Lisa xx