So, I'm not there yet...the final big end. However, something is concerning me; I always know really clearly when my oestrogen is low (silly cycles at the moment, very erratic, but I can 'tell' just from my symptoms what my body is doing internally) - I am very tearful (sometimes all day), incredibly low, get panic attacks, feel muscle twitching, constipated, a bit of stress incontinence, insomnia and horrible hot sweats. This is only NOW even before I'm in the stage before I'm flatlining hormonally! I am a different person on weeks when oestrogen is raised. If I'm this bad now, will it just get worse and worse or will it even out and I/my body get used to it after the final period/meno event. I know that nobody can say what somebody else will have as their outcome, but I am interested in some opinions on this. I have a background and history of not coping well with hormonal changes :'(I am unable to be prescribed HRT.