Thanks for comments.
Paisley, appreciate your honesty - sorry to read that you're still struggling, sounds lame but hope you find some stability in time.
So true every woman is different and unfortunately I'm *always* in the minority, hyper-responsive category who doesn't respond well to medication/treatment, just to add insult to injury, so sick of my weak constitution. Over the years I've discussed hyster with the Meno Clinic and pondered for so long as of course it's such a massive decision - through fear I already imagine changing my mind and jumping off the operating table at the last minute just before anaesthetic! My ovaries are now "undetectable" on scans so they would be left in place.
Duavive I don't see as an option for ethical reasons and prefer transdermal.
If I come off HRT altogether, without estrogen I will be back to feeling (more) suicidal with constant migraine and worsened anxiety/depression, a life not worth living. However a life with taking progesterone, albeit every 6 weeks, is still life-ruining, of no quality with the psychosis/imbalance/disruption it causes. We are all so hugely different, some women are fine on it.
If only there were more choices of HRT for progesterone intolerance.
Tried various ADs in the past, all gave hideous side effects.
No solution really ... sigh ... round and round in ever decreasing circles, no hope.
The sun is shining but couldn't feel more miserable. Sorry for the whinge, very low in spirits.